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My Pain Grotto
Merriam Webster's first definition for grotto is simply "cave". That left me unsatisfied, so I searched "grotto vs cave", because, while the English language has both Anglo and Saxon ancestry, in addition to anything else convenient that came along, it's rare that two words mean the same thing without some nuance of difference. That led me to askdifference.com which I feel clarified well.
So, I apologize if pain is becoming too much of a repetitive theme here, but not only am I finding it interesting, writing about it is also helping me in managing it. Sorry, but also thank you if you keep reading regardless. A grotto, not a cave, I like that, and not just because it sounds exotic, although yes, that definitely helps. Smaller and picturesque, I like those, and I'm not opposed to a waterfront view, even if not all human enhancements suit my particular aesthetic.
While interesting isn't always good, I am finding my exploration of this pain cavern intriguing. I also trust that I won't be lost in here forever. Who knows, maybe it's even a tunnel with a light at the end, so I won't need to backtrack. See, I'm having lots of fun with metaphors this morning! I'm also feeling my morning doses of ibuprofen and nerve pain relief kick in, so that and this mental engagement are helping a lot with my management.
Yes, camping in this pain grotto has been a learning experience, and that can be positive thing. I'm managing, and that alone teaches me to trust that I can. I'm confident what I'm feeling isn't life threatening, and it's also giving me empathy for people who develop pain medication dependency after living with a hurting body for far longer. So again, thanks if you've read this far, this effort to distract myself from the discomfort by mentally engaging and talking about it. Maybe that's the aesthetic engagement that helps make my pain cave a grotto!
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